5:00 pm

It's 5:00 and I'm going home. Still no call. I called the school this afternoon, was told that as soon as they found him, they would have him call me...guess he's really lost.

STILL WAITING

I'm still waiting on the phone call. I'm really not good at waiting, maybe that's why I'm still waiting. God wants us to wait on Him and not get in such a hurry. As I wait, my faith begins to waiver...what if...

God, this is in Your capable Hands. I don't have to worry. I only have to trust YOU.

Waiting

WAIT: to stay in place of expectation; to look forward to expectantly

ANTICIPATE: to look forward to

Guess where my mind is today. I am in a place of waiting and anticipation. Today is the day I'm supposed to hear from North Sound about the job. I'm not patient. I hate waiting. Why is it a possible future employer would tell you he will call on a Tuesday AFTER a long three day weekend?

I had a great time Saturday with some current members of our home group, as well as former members. It was a nice, relaxing time. Tammy and Torrey live in Gold Bar and after visiting their home I can understand a little more why they make that long drive every day.

I am continuing to seek God's will in my life. (I'm just feeling very good about this being it.) Hopefully, I will post again later today.

Interview Update Two

As I was leaving the office this morning for my interview, I saw three familiar looking men leaving the building where I work. It was the whole pastoral staff from my church. I stopped to say hi. They knew where I was going as they had already prayed for me this morning. We took that opportunity to pray about the job together. I left feeling even more positive than before...knowing that I and others are praying for God's will in my life.

Well, wish I could tell you that the job is mine. I won't know anything definite until the early part of next week. HOWEVER...I feel in my heart that it is my job. When Mr. Osborn said he would contact me by Tuesday, I'm sure I had a look of surprise and responded "By Tuesday, really?" At that point he said, "Well, you're the only one who has applied for this position." I figure if he didn't like me he would have said that there were still applications coming in and they had to schedule a couple more interviews. And, I won't assume I got the job because they had no other choices. I assume that's God's choice. When you consider the fact that Edmonds School District has over 200 Social Studies application packets (as do many of the other school districts), the fact that only one application came in for this position....well, that's a God thing!

Thanks for your prayers.

A 12 Step Program

I'm thinking about starting a 12 step program. I don't think there is one out there for this addiction yet.

Hi, My name's Paulette and I'm a Reality Television-aholic. It started a few years ago during the first season of "Survivor". When I was visiting someone else who was watching it, I thought it was a stupid show. 15 people on an island with no food, electricity, soap, technology, etc. No one will watch that. The next Thursday, I found myself with nothing to do, flipping through the channels and saw it again...so I stopped. That was my first real forray into "reality". I didn't miss an episode after that. Then along came "The Bachelor", "Big Brother", "American Idol", "The Amazing Race", "The Mole", "Dancing With the Stars", "So, You Think You Can Dance"...oh and these are just the shows on the 4 main stations...then there's BRAVO, CMT, The Food Network, etc. Obviously no one has this much time (do they?). Since I got "hooked", I have worn out VCR's and more tapes than I care to count. I sometimes watch one and tape another. I was hysterical two weeks ago when I actually taped the wrong station and MISSED the finale of Survivor: Fiji. (Thank goodness it was shown later on On-Demand). I cry at the finales...sometimes because of the results, but most often because these people will no longer be spending evenings with me. I haven't been to too many concerts of actual stars...but 3 years ago for my birthday I got a trip to Key Arena to see The American Idol Top Ten Tour (mainly to see CLAY AIKEN). It was the thrill of a lifetime. A couple of weeks ago, went with the same friends to see Blake come through Bothell for his home visit.

This week has been up and down emotionally for me...the Bachelor picked Tess. I was happy about that. Apollo Ohno won "DWTS"...I would have been happy if Joey Fatone had won too. And tonight it's either Blake or Jordin. Again, I'll be happy with either one. As "Dancing" was ending last night, I was wondering what I would do with my new free time...then I saw the ad for "So You Think You Can Dance"....I felt somewhat better knowing that one will pick up where the other leaves off.

I need help. I am going to start a program...I just have to find the right night...

:)

Some days...

I am fighting through that "some days I should just stay in bed" feeling today. I actually woke up an hour early this morning (not on purpose) and was feeling so rested (and excited about my interview) that I decided to go ahead and get out of bed so that I could get some real "alone" time with God and my coffee. I was feeling very positive about my interview this afternoon and about just the general condition of my life.

Then I got to the office. Soon after I got here, things started going downhill. First I got a call from North Sound apologizing and rescheduling my interview. It won't be today, it will be Thursday morning instead. Then I poured coffee grounds into the coffee pot without the filter. In cleaning that up, I made an even bigger mess. Next someone let the office door (which is right in front of my desk) slam shut and my picture of Zack fell off the shelf it was on and the frame shattered. And last but not least, my ex-husband hasn't had anyone to argue with lately so he called to start an argument and further try to disrupt my days.

It is only 12:30...so there's still plenty of day to save. I have decided that I'm not going to let Satan win this one. I know what he's doing and he can't have anymore of this day. This one belongs to God.

"Blessings"

My good friend, Jimi, gave me this little "Bedside Blessings" book by Charles Swindoll. It's not by my bed, but in my desk drawer here in the office. I start off each morning by reading what's written for today. Amazingly, this book seems to be in sync with my life this year (isn't it great how God works?) Today is no exception.

I'm anticipating my interview on Tuesday...not worrying, just anticipating. I do pretty well in interviews, though the last few years wouldn't prove that. But, I still think about the questions that may be asked, how I will answer, etc. etc. I need to exude confidence, make myself look good, make sure to say the right things, use proper educational phrases...But this time it's a Christian setting so I can be a lot more forthright about my beliefs. So, let me share with you what God shared with me through my "blessings" book this morning.

"You don't have to promote yourself if you've got the stuff...If you are to be used of God, they'll find you. God will promote you. I don't care what the world system says. I urge you to let God do the promoting...In the meantime, sit quietly under His hand...You will never have to wonder in the future if it was you or the Lord who made things happen. If He chooses to use you in a mighty way...you won't have any reason to get conceited. HE DID IT ALL."

Have a great weekend.